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Dark, Twisty Places

Hello all! Welcome back to the inside of my universe.

Allow me to vent for a little…on sliding back into the soul.

My soul has been full lately, and with great reason! I’ve visited family, had a chat with a close friend or so, my love life has been great…but lately the emotional toll that I hold back, the negativity I hold on to, has weighed down my soul. It’s in quite a dark place, a dark and twisty place.

Being around folks that require more energy than most do not bother me, however it is their negative energy they give me in return that is the most draining. Do you ever feel that way? Do you ever feel disconnected from your own emotions because you’re holding together the negative energy that eats away at you? I fall apart when I enter this dark, twisty place–and no one notices. I like to fall apart in the comfort of my own judgmental sorrow.

What do you do when you have nothing left in your soul to give, except the negative energy you’ve held on to for so long? As I fall apart I have to remember that I’m also putting myself together too…..all within time.

“Good things come to those who wait”,



Poisonous Nostalgia

As she thinks about her past she remembers what had driven her to write and where her inspiration had come from—it was him. 

Time passes, the future has now set in. Not 0nce has she picked up a book, her laptop, or even a pen and paper to try and think of any thoughts because she knew her work would turn to shit—because you were her inspiration.

Presently thinking? She is content with where her mind leads her, where her desire will drive her, but there is a hole missing. She makes love to her lover, she keeps herself busy with mindless melodramas, she keeps herself together for the most part—until she begins to indulge in that poisonous nostalgia. 

“I’ll be making love to her through you” – The Weeknd

Life Outside Of Sexual Attraction

Har Har all! 

A few things on the universe lately, and of course it pertains to those things that are sexual (it wouldn’t be so entertaining if it were something else, yeah? ;)) 

Sex. It’s something we all have, at some point, thought about, and/or engaged in; whether it be with yourself, a partner, or maybe even a couple of partners (for those with a wilder streak?) But why do some people place this act up on such urgent priority? I can understand the need to feel close to someone and the intimate details that sex involves, but can’t the closeness and the euphoria of sex be received from cuddling or maybe even sensual touch? 

What would happen if the urgency for sex was taken out of the equation, what would remain? Can you have a relationship without sex? If you can’t, ask yourself what it is about sex, other than it obviously feels good, that you can’t do without. 

I understand that sex is a natural process humans feel, but what I don’t understand is why people put such a high regard for it. I suppose this is the part where I should say “people have individual needs and wants” ? 

Random discussions with people leads to random blog posts. 


Embrace The Present, Don’t Forget Your Past

In regards to this path that I have paved, to the canvas I have turned my body into, and to the thoughts that always float around–this is for you.

I always hated when my scars started to fade, because as long as I could still see them, I knew why I was hurting. (Jodi Picoult) 


New Empire

Watch my face as I pretend to feel no pain- John Mayer

@THEmeghanstein Then + Now







All grown up. *tear*

Round Two Now

Hello all!

Anyone who reads (or glances) on this thing has probably realised that I love exploring the depths of sexual encounters. Maybe that means I’m obsessed with the topic? No such thing! Anyways, every time I hear this song I think about that amazing passion that only two compatible partners can create.

Ain’t this what you came for? Don’t you wish you came more? Ah, come on Come on, let me kiss that Oh, I know you miss that. What’s wrong?  Let me fix that…

You know when you have that intense want (or need, depending on your sex drive and preferences) for someone? When your body quivers at just the thought of being near him? It’s hard knowing that being physically apart like this can only heighten my want for you.

And now the bed’s broke


Yeah…if you read this, it’s about you.



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