Archive for November, 2013
Six in the morn missing those shut eyes
that bring me dreams and helped me escape my life.
Six in the morning, how do you do?
Did you welcome me with breakfast or
did you forget that too?
Six a.m., where do I begin?
To start with the restless nights or shall we speak of the hems?
Consistent thoughts, forever loose-ends,
this plague is overtaking me and I don’t have the
strength to keep it in.
Please understand that this is all I can do,
for the days are crazy and the nights are long,
only because it told them to.
Six o’clock, that’s where I am right now.
Abiding by its rules so maybe I can rest
somehow. Six a.m., I didn’t welcome you here,
but you won’t leave until you’re satisfied, so
I guess you’ll always be near.
Forgotten words, leftover stories,
the night is just about to begin.
This world we know is not the one we knew.
The war inside, the constant fire,
yet nothing burns.
We create our own visible hell and become covered
in scars and physical memories.
Two sides divided, both aimed at one another,
but the visions do not compare; for I am
only a part of one.
Two worlds pulled out before us, which shall you believe?
Perception, or reality?
I sit here and think,
that’s what has got the best of me.
The mind alone can work wonders on any body,
so why doesn’t it cooperate with me?
Too many thoughts, too many tasks,
when will I be able to slow it down?
Compromise on meeting in the middle,
that’s how the world is seen.
Promises get broken and the thoughts overtake you,
but your mind is supposed to be far too keen.
I sit, and I pray to the Heavens
that this chaos will one day make sense.
The fast days and now blurry faces,
I hope they can forgive.
When we give ourselves permission to have real moments of solitude, we are giving ourselves the gift of connecting to our ‘Authentic Self’… the seat of our wisdom, creative genius, passion, purpose, our gifts and talents. By cultivating solitude, our life opens into new vistas of possibilities…
~ Judit e. Szabo