Pursuit to my happiness

Archive for November, 2011

Fatties. Kid CuDi. Oatmeal. Trapped in my Mind?

I love that song, great song to relate to. I have relations with that subject, I live in my universe (mind). Since I do live up there that’s why it is no longer called my mind, it’s my universe. What’s on my universe right now? That’s a Facebook question.

On to what I was wanting to express to you all. There comes a time whenever an individual has to make a life-altering decision (if you think about it, every decision is a life-altering one) that you will have to live with for the rest of your life. Do you take it? Do you weigh the risks of benefits and damage beforehand or do you just plunge right into the matter? If you decide not to follow through with it will you regret it? Would you go back and try to see what may have happened? Or do you decide to take that plunge and just go for it? Choices like these are always ones which I hate making because a sudden urge to not do it clouds my mind. I need to begin taking more risks…maybe. Either case, the decision I want to make has been crowding around in my subconscious lately and I believe it’s time for me to make a final decision whether I want to follow through with it or just wait. I’ve always waited and now that I have another opportunity to partake in this it seems as though I’m supposed to? Or maybe it’s a test? It could ultimately be either-or considering where I’ve walked.

I know this is very vague, but it can apply to most anything yeah?

I love Pandora. I also love Lux Aeterna. (latin).

I’m going to Google some things and maybe get back to this thing to tell you guys how it went. Hope your choice gets decided on adequately.

xx Yenttirb

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Half-shirts, exposed midrifts, and alcohol

There is a three hour shift I’m covering for someone and I’m only on the first hour…But I have an entire house to myself? There isn’t really any alcohol. I kind of lied. I should apologize for leading you on…

Anyway, had this crazy dream last night. There was a lot of sex going on and, to be frank, I’m not too sure why? Maybe it’s my subconscious talking to me in my dreams.

It started off with this guy, whose name I shall keep confidential just in case he reads this, talking to me about strange things. Very strange things. When he wasn’t telling me about the strange dreams he had been having he wasn’t saying a word. Nothing. When someone goes from talkative to silent it makes ones brow rise, well mine did at least. I couldn’t help but ask him why he had silenced and his answer was he was listening to the silence and interpreting it into a message that individuals usually overlook. By this time I’m completely confused and I don’t know what to really say, so I just sit and go off into my own thoughts. He watches me, I can feel his gaze shift to my body, and makes mental notes on how my entire body language is blank. He can’t tell what I’m thinking, when I wasn’t really thinking about anything in particular, he can’t get what I’m feeling. I’m blank. It skips to he and I on a couch and we’re laying down. He gets up to use the bathroom and I leave to go into a bedroom, I lay back down. When he comes back in he lays down and he holds me from behind but I insist that I spoon him. (I’m not sure why I feel that’s important but something tells me that it is). He’s reluctant about it but he finally allows me to hold him, which is strange because I then became silent?

Somehow that turned into wandering hands. Darkness and an attractive, loving man seems to do things to my mind.

After that I don’t really remember what happens next, it just kind of blanks out. Maybe I’m turning into a typical gal, maybe I’m becoming one of those girls who complain when she hasn’t gotten laid in two weeks.

Haha…self-joke.

Avenged Sevenfold

Beast and the Harlot

I don’t care if you liked them or not, Jimmy (known as The Rev., the deceased drummer <3) was a kick ass drummer. Can you do kicks like that for that long if your name isn't Lars? Shit. I miss that man, such an amazing musician. Seems we're losing them all to that thing called drugs. RIP Rev.

Astrology

There are several different components to a person and their natal chart, such as: which sign represent what zodiac is in your personality and its degrees, what planets are in you and how they effect you, and it shows how many elements (air, water, earth, and fire) are in you.

Today I learned that Mars, the God of War, rules our energy, our actions and desires, our animal instincts. It not only rules over those things it also rules our body attraction to other people. Although Venus rules the romantic portion of our attraction, Mars takes our sexual desires and makes us act as opposed to react.

I found it strange how my Aquarius is in Saturn, the ruler of restriction. As anyone who has searched about the zodiac an Aquarius is known for rebellion and boundary-breaking. Mine is really low….explains why I still abide by the rules, eh?

Neptune controls psychic sensitivity. How would that work if my Neptune is in Capricorn and Neptune is the ruler of Pisces? Caps and Pisces are on two different ends of the chain with little similarities to compare them to.

Pluto is associated with rebirthing and renewal–it’s also Scorpio’s ruler. Since Pluto rotates slower than the rest of the planets (and yes I will argue that Pluto is a “regular” planet…it has feelings too!) then that means that my generation of people will all have their Pluto in Scorpio. People who have Scorpio in their Pluto search for a deeper meaning and truth in life, or whatever they are searching for.

Your ascendent marks your physical attributes, overall health, and our body ego. It also represents our natural defense mechanisms that we get used to, change in to, or environment ourselves in to. Our midheaven demonstrates our life path that we want to take.

I just looked up eros….I’m so confused. A really good site for a confirmation about YOUR personal free natal chart is cafeastrology.com

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